To Whom It May Concern

Dear A,

This is the letter I'll never send to you. What's left of my heart is in this letter, and if only it were as easy as to give you this letter, I would. I never knew love until I knew you. I shared with you my mind, body, heart, and soul. We shared a feeling so deep that simply cannot be put into words. We shared our lives together; through friends, God, our dreams, passions, goals in life, through love.

The love in my heart for you will never change. I was told that time heals everything. I've believe time just makes things a little easier to deal with. But the truth is, I still dream of you, I still cry myself to sleep thinking of you, and I still look up at the stars wishing you were near me.I check my hp ... just in case.

Most of all, I pray that you will accomplish your dreams with strength and pride and honor. I still love you and want you to have the best of life. I just wish I was a part of it. I never knew that someone could ever hurt as much as I do. What scares me is I'm sure the pain in life gets worse. You have hurt me in countless ways, in ways you promised you would never. In ways I never knew you could or would ever do. It is only worth mentioning because it hasn't shaken my love for you. I want to believe in forgiving and forgetting. If you would only let me forgive you. If only you showed me you cared.

What has hurt me more than God ever gave warning for was the night I needed you most. I called you from the accident scene. I was scared, alone, traumatized, and needed you badly. I have been there for you countlessly. I always in my heart thought that no matter where our relationship was at the time, when I needed you the most, you would be there. I know I would do the same for you. I just bought a box of cupcakes for you for your birthday. And the next day you just totally ignored me and asked me for a break up. So many times, I thought life is so unfair. I know there are reasons why we can't be together. Reasons that God only knows, but this will not be the reason for me to forget you. You really know how much I love you and care for you but there is nothing I can do more. Even though we're apart, this will not be the end of our commitment. You are the best thing that ever happened in my whole, entire, damn life. Please keep me in a special place in your heart ... that's where you'll stay in mine.

Just always remember that I really treasure your love and cares for me. I really miss you so.

Love,

Farah.

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